It all looks perfect until it all falls apart
It all looks beautiful until we know that it is just art
They are on sycophant alert
They just didn’t comprehend the world that I traversed
I’m not a lover of men in the public eye
Nothing has ever
Passed me by
I loved the men who I saw at home
I loved men
Who didn’t have to
Make it up as they go along
Towering above you all
Mightier than the best of you
Oh how dare you say
That racists will rule
Until my dying day
I loved no one more than my island home
Beaches, peach Bellinis and bikinis
Oh to be home
Convertible on Hooker Boulevard
Laughing and living hard
Fast cars with billionaires
Doing the Elvis thing
They didn’t need sell themselves
They didn’t schlep around town with work stolen
They were at the top of the tree
Not towering over me
But towering over you
Who wants to stay in drab old town
With men who see racists
It was no family found
I used to smile at them through tears everyday
Just abused in the room forced to write under duress until I could escape
Back out the door gently
Before they turned on me
He used to sit there shouting
“It’s all about me, it’s all about me”
Sneak out the door
Can’t walk forward
Try to escape
I’m scared to say a word
They threaten me before I leave the room
Say a word and we will come and abuse you
Smear you in front of them all
We’ll bring up the rapes love
Say this writing is with consent
We’ll make it all up
Your our racial scapegoat
We are making you the target
Because we stole all your work
We need them to turn on you
So we can commit fraud
Everyone wanted his fame
But not me
I knew wealthier men who were sophisticated
Made their own way in the world
Without stealing from a helpless girl
On the other side of the world
I just couldn’t stand another minute
They all want to make racial harassment ok
They all want a woman
Not to be paid
Objectified
Because they said
That I didn’t write a word
Then they deny it to my family and
They want to take every penny
They say they don’t want anyone charged with fraud or anyone to go to prison
They live off stolen money
They make up a story
Stop talking about me
As though I am an unimportant woman
I am not a woman of little worth
Please stop discussing the abuse
Please stop discussing the abuse
Don’t tell an abuse survivors story for her
Do they all love them
For what they didn’t do ?
Do they love him
For harming women to work
No one loved him
For forcing
Abusing
Under duress
Didn’t ever say yes
Didn’t ever say yes
Said that it was all
Without consent
Under duress
Don’t minimise forced work
It didn’t happen to you
Don’t take a voice
To hide that it was forced
Even if you are not really a
Feminist
Women deserve payment
Human rights abuses
Hunted down for it
Don’t tell an abused woman’s story for her to help her abuser and the fraudster
They said I would die for them and that there would be media censorship
They said the media had to be obedient
That they have power over media censorship
They Said to me only abusers would have a voice
They take the voice of the victim
The voice of the one with all the words in her head
They called me to threaten me
To stay away from all the law students
But I just said I can’t they’re all in the house
You put my life in danger because they had stolen all my lyrics
And now I was dating someone who could pull the plug on all of it
And have them all sent to jail
I was also the only one who who could date men who were wealthier than of an any of the men in the room
I would look for a moment to escape to that front room and to sit with the safe men who are also at university
They said to me they could censor the media
That they had power over media censorship. They could keep the true story from being known and then they threatened me
It’s all about fraud
And outrunning the statute
They said to me that you can’t keep up with the lie machine
He said that with the stolen money he would hire a team
Big enough to make sure they’d never get it away from him again so we would never be charged
That they would interfere with the legal system for him
He’s funny as joke he’s making fun of rape
He’s funniest joke is making fun of rape
He took the no from the woman who refused to sleep with him
He took the no of the woman who refused to write for him
Hey, we’ve got rape information
Let’s humiliate her and make her a victim
We need to sublimate you for Anglo-Saxon women
Put it all down to racism
Stealing for fraud
It’s all made to make money dissapear